10 day project

10 day project

Day 1: Ten things I want to say to ten different people right now.

1. Matt, I love you more than I thought I would ever love again and im grateful you are in my life.
2. Kytten, I don’t get along with most females but I love you, watching you has helped me open myself up more.
3. Becca, Im very glad ive met you and that you are part of our family, I cant wait to get to know you even more.
4. Mom, while I want to hate you I find myself missing you and seeing more of you in me everyday in the good ways such as how you cook, clean and love to care for others. I just wonder why you tried to poison me.
5. Tyler, I miss you and hope one day we can be in each others lives again
6. Madison, my baby girl, I regret leaving you like I did but it wont be forever, there will be a day when we meet again.
7. Dad, I know you tried but some of the damage you did cant be fixed…I still deal with it and the words you said are not a trigger to me.
8. Roger(my step dad) Im grateful that you gave me a place to stay when no one else would but the damage you did to me as a child I still deal with.
9. Jeff, Why, just Why did you do what you did to me, I don’t think ill ever forgive you.
10. Julie, thank you for accepting me as I am, we may believe different but that hasn’t stopped you from being friends with me and I am grateful to you for that.

Day 2: Nine things about myself.

1. I love to write
2. My dogs are a passion of mine, I love spending time with them
3. I enjoy crocheting
4. Cooking is a hobby of mine
5. I think ive grown more in the past 2 years than have in any other time in my life
6. Im very touchy feely and love physical contact
7. I can create and read blueprints
8. I love working on cars
9. I can drive a forklift.

Day 3: Eight ways to win my heart.

1. Be honest with me
2. Love animals as much as I do
3. Remember the little things like my favorite foods or how I like my coffee
4. Understand that at times I just need alone time(I use some of this time to think through my writing topics.
5. Random hugs/kisses for no reason
6. If I cook something and you don’t like it or think something could be added next time I make it tell me, I never take that the wrong way, I want my cooking to be as perfect as possible and like the feedback.
7. Call me out on my mistakes or things ive done wrong
8. Give me time to grow and learn new things, while im eager to learn sometimes I don’t grasp things as fast as others.

Day 4: Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1. My kids
2. Am I good enough
3. Did I mess something up
4. Did I forget to do something
5. Are I making my dogs happy enough
6. Are the people in my life happy
7. Do I make those in my life happy enough or is there something else I should be doing to make them happier

Day 5: Six things I wish I’d never done.

1. Left my kids
2. Had kids when I was soo young and not ready
3. Quit high school to get my GED
4. Not finished college
5. Started smoking
6. Let my weight get so out of control.

Day 6: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

1. Matt
2. Kytten
3. Becca
4. Julie
5. Bones & Jasper

Day 7: Four turn-offs.

1. Not liking animals
2. Being rude to others
3. Having no respect for anyone
4. drugs

Day 8: Three turn-ons.

1. Affectionate
2. Considerate
3. Having manners

Day 9: Two images that describe my life right now, and why.

1. A calm serene place that I meditate at
2. Family, an actual family where we each accept each other as they are

Day 10: One confession.

Im not a poly person but for some reason this seems to be working and im happy about it. I never in my wildest dreams thought I could be happy in a situation like this