Its weird to say im Home, i dont just mean a place to rest my head at the end of the day but a home with a family that i never thought id have and a wonderful Master in which for the first time in my life i can call him Master and not feel weird or odd about it. I have 2 wonderful chain sisters and a possible third one as well. I just dont think i could be any happier.
When i moved here i wasnt in the greatest of a situation and Matt seen that and offered me a place to stay til i got on my feet, well im kind of on my feet now but not leaving, instead im calling this Home, my forever home in which i have a family to care for and love and in exchange they help take care of me and love me as well.
Ive had family before, my blood family and that went all haywire and turned into a very dangerous situation i had to get out of and i did. I aldo made a rash decision and ended up in a relationship that lasted for a while but wasnt the healthiest things in the world. Now i dont have that problem.
I always said i could never do poly but i find myself in a poly family and i wouldnt trade it for anything. We all get our fair share of time with Master, he makes a point to make sure we all know we are loved and in return we all do as much as we can to make sure he knows he is loved and taken care of in the best way we can.
Im a shy person overall but im working on that and have even been able to express any issues or anxieties i have and we work through them together. Even last night when i was spending some time with Master i was able to say things i had never said before. and all of this leads me to believe that i have in fact found the right one as never before could i vocally express myself. Also even saying the word Master has always been a HUGE challenge for me but its not with Him, its easy, its comfortable and i simply just feel like my heart, mind, soul and body not only belong to him but also are where they belong.
He brought up the fact of if i would like being an object, and before i would have always said no but this time it just feels right and i can, i dont mind being an object to Him, in fact it feels good.
Its just wonderful to be home.
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