Page 8 topic 1

Page 8 topic 1

Many people make the mistake of assuming that giving up control also means giving up responsibility. No matter what the situation, a slave shares equal responsibility for any consequences, either good or bad, that occur as a result of consensual activities.

Hahaha is my first reaction to this. I may give up control but I gain responsibility. Responsibility of making sure my Master is taken care of, the house is taken care of, the pets needs met. I take it as its my responsibility to make sure that His life is made as easy as possible in as many areas as I can.

Im not sure where I fit as far as alpha slave or what in the family simply because we haven’t had that talk yet but I feel its that way and in a way its giving me a confidence boost and making some things easier mentally for me. Maybe im thinking it all wrong or even over thinking it..not sure, guess time will tell…

I know speaking up about things is one of my greatest issues at this point and ive been working hard on it, im not perfect on it yet and may never be but at east im working on it, after all no one can be responsible for things if no one knows about whats going on

I also think I took this topic wrong…as it does say about it being the result of consensual activities…well yeah, in a way I would share the responsibility, I mean say we were playing and I was triggered(which as well as Matt knows me and as much as ive told him I doubt that would happen) but if I didn’t say anything about the trigger and instead started acting out, throwing fits or getting angry of course it would be my fault for it…it would mean a break down of communication. But while we are on this subject I might as well list some my triggers.

1.       70s rock like Hendrix, zeplin, Janis Joplin, even CCR can set me off and the HUGE one is Iron butterfly.

2.       The word tits, or titties or any other form of that word.

3.       I don’t have the littles side to me like I thought but I have a hard time with being told to call someone daddy, its understandable why but I figure I might as well put it anyway.

4.       Too raised of voices, I do enjoy a stern tone letting me know that things will go as He wishes, I actually take comfort in that kind of tone.

5.       Name calling, some names are okay such as slut, slave meat, obviously just slave I love, but I cant stand the names bitch, cunt, cow or pig, those set me off in a bad way.

Giving up control means taking on what responsibilities that Master has set out for me and im good, no im great with that. We a know I need structure, rules and schedules to function at my best…